Porto Alegre, Brazil. April 8th, 2019.
2018 was a tough year. Stuck in the south of Brazil, away from the city where I first felt like home, lots of disappointments with close friends and even more so with myself. But as some of you might know by now, it's in my nature to use music as the ultimate outlet for my deepest frustrations. When we put out The Grand Disguise, I could immediately tell that the songs people connected to the most where the ones that I wrote when I was feeling like a bag of shit. And when I finally had the courage to rip myself apart and translate all the mess into a musical scenery, people from many places around the world felt a very strong bond with that freak show.
It's been around a year and a half since we released Circus and by then I already had the third album written and pre produced. But the timing is still not here. The next full length is just too big of a concept to be recorded and produced in a rush. It will need time and effort (and one hell of a budget) to be made in the proper way. Also, the next album is a lot brighter and uplifting than the music we have released so far (even though is a lot heavier at the same time) and it simply does not represent where my mind was in the last months. From all the struggle, came a very weird experience. I wrote some songs that somehow told me they belonged together and this is what we're releasing next: a four-song EP.
The songs in that EP have an immense amount of personal experience in them. To the point that it might even sound uncomfortable to some of you. And I'd like you to feel embarrassed, because that's what those songs did to myself. When I was writing them, I had a clear vision of whom I was talking about in those lyrics. About all the people that disappointed me in the recent past, all the frustration of seeing adults around me acting like teenagers and all the lack of intelligence of the majority of folks I was interacting with. But when I finished the pre production and listened back to the four songs in their tracklist order, I came to a crushing realization: I was writing about myself. Again.
And that gave me a whole new perspective on what I was doing wrong, to myself and to others around me. And those songs slowly helped me fix a few of those issues. And I truly hope we can release it soon, so they can help you as well - in any shape or form you need them to.
I still can't give you a release date, a name, a cover or anything like it. But I'll share a few moments with you right here. Those are extracts from the demos, so don't take them too seriously for every note and word may change in the actual recording. But feel free to enjoy them with all your heart, as you have been doing in the past.
Keep on daydreaming,
What I'm listening to in this fragment of time: Hail Stan by Periphery
What I'm watching in this fragment of time: Tig by Kristina Goolsby and Ashley York
What I'm reading in this fragment of time: The Dark Secret at the Heart of AI by Will Knight